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Sitting… Bleeding out on a park bench… The ducks follow each other as they skate across the water… I thought back to how it all started… How quick things can go from nothing to everything… And everything to nothing… 

I sent her a snap… All it said was “Let me slut you out.😈” … 

She said “Ok😍”

I took her out to eat… By the way she picked at her food… I could tell… She was too shy to eat in front of me… So I had paid for two bottles of Moscato to ease her mind… She sipped from her glass and told me about her childhood… She told me about her life from beginning to end… And after a while I could tell she was beginning to open up…  So when I was done eating I asked her… “You really going to let me slut you out?”... She said “Only for you. I will only do it for you.”... And she gave the most innocent evil smile… And when we were done… Before she stood… I stood up and grabbed her face… In front of everyone there… I squeezed so her mouth opened… Her chin up… I spit in her mouth then squeezed her tit… This old lady at the table next to us said “What in the world?”... I smiled at the old lady and grabbed my girl's hand… We walked out… 

I felt like the Joker… Like the bad guy in some movie… Harley Q my girl… She was smart and had the body of model below a pretty face… She held it all together… So the world would think she was just another girl… But… She was broken… She accepted her fucked up emotions because I did… I was the first person she felt truly understood her… And she felt that if she was good enough for me then she was good enough for herself… Fuck everyone else… Fuck the world… 

In the truck I had my left hand on the wheel… Steering as she kissed my neck and played with my dick… I tried to stay between the lines… My right hand between her legs… The truck moved from line to line… She bit me on my neck then used her mouth to bless my dick… We hit the south side of the city limits… She took her mouth off of me… She took her pants and panties off… I slid the seat back… And she got on top of me… She said “I trust you”... And as she held the base of my dick she sat down taking all of me inside her… I kept driving… Trying to keep from driving off the road… Looking over her shoulder… Her body in cruise control… A slow grind…

I couldn't handle it… I couldn't wait any longer… I made a left and then another left and parked right there at the cemetery… I opened the drivers side door… I let her continue riding me until her body tensed up and she climaxed… I lifted her off of me… Stood outside the truck and had her sit on the drivers seat facing me… The perfect height… I tongue kissed her pussy cleaning up the mess we had made… Then I stood and with her legs around me… I raised up on my toes and grinded up against her… I put my hand on her throat as I raised up on my toes and then lowered… Raised up and lowered… Then… I pulled her out the truck and I fucked her from behind as she was leaned over the drivers seat… When I came… I came so much that it was leaking out of her as I continued fucking her… I pushed inside her one more time… Squeezed her ass and with my other hand I pulled her hair… With her head back I kissed her neck…

I let her use my undershirt to clean up… Then we walked the cemetery… I told her….

“I feel like this world uses us, feeds off of us… Our time and energy slowly drained away day in and day out… Our dreams and beliefs eaten away a small bite at a time… And because these bites are so small we don't notice it… Until it's too late… We don’t know we are fucked up untill we are already lost and stuck in depression and a sea of stress… Drowning and looking for someone to save us… But when we look around at this sea of stress there are so many people… So many people and yet… What is the point of asking them for help… When they are just as hopeless and fucked up as we are…”

She stopped walking beside me… She looked at me… And said “I never thought of it that way. But you are right. That is so true.”... I pulled her close and kissed her… And I said “Then lets burn this world down.”... And thats what we did…

So here I am… On this park bench… Duffle bag full of money… The sound of sirens and police cars interrupting the ducks as they skate across the water… Bullet holes in my chest and stomach… Alone… The thought of her last moments as I held her and she bled out in the truck… The thought of my last moments… The cops begin to yell… “Get down!”...  “Let me see your hands!”... I watched the ducks lift off of the water and begin to fly away… And I raised my pistol… And all I saw was black…