Eyes Closed Mind Open

Close your eyes on the world. Close your eyes and just enjoy the sense of touch, the sense of smell, the sense of taste, and with your mind’s eye imagine the world you lust for.

She said, “My sins will never be forgiven.” I smiled and asked “What? What do you mean?” And she said “I pretend it is you fucking me when I sleep with my husband.” I stopped smiling realizing that she was serious. I said “Why? You love him so why?” And she said “The thought of him touching me disgusts me. And… I want to be a good wife, so I have to just imagine its you.” I didn’t say anything I just waited for her to continue. She just looked down and, in the silence, I knew she felt she was dirty or a hoe for the act. I didn’t have the power to forgive her. So, I grabbed her face hard. My finger pressing on her cheeks and forcing her to open her mouth. Then I kissed her. Tongue and all.