Shadow

My fucking shadow… This fucking shadow… Am I worth following?... I deliberately hold my breath trying to see how long I can last before I suffocate… Yes… Yes… I need Jesus… I need religion… Just fucking leave me!.. I am not who you want to follow… Don’t mimic me… And if you won’t leave, I will kill the light… Because I do not deserve you… I am useless… I shouldn’t exist… This fucking shadow… Why?... In the darkness I find myself… My truest self… I cant see my hands… I can’t see anything… This nothing is my only want and need… What could have been?.. Oh what could have been… Fuck this shadow… Until I fall asleep… Kill my shadow…